Work Is Not What I Ever Wanted ; You know what I want
Today is not quite a day for me. Started out well in the morning, with our sweet morning wishes. It was your morning love message which drives me the whole day everyday since I've fallen in love with you. Drove to KL to practice just for you. Passed my license also because of you. I'm happy now is still because of you. Went to Bangsar Village looking for jobs as requested by my mum. Found Haagen Daaz a vacancy and signed it up. It was such a misfortune that they ran out of application form for my only beloved my soon to be wife in the future. I was so desperate looking jobs which comes in 2 to work together with you. It was till I received a heartbreaking message saying not to bother you and continue with my job ALONE. I dont even know if I can even last an hour working without you. I'm willing to put that freakin job down just to have you. I can give up anything just for you for my world has tumble upon me long ago. You're my new world I needed to live through. I can feel the sadness in you when I talked about jobs. Can't you feel how much I needed you. I wanted you to be selfish to have me only. I wanted you to be happy every second. I dont care bout that freaking jobs now. I'm not gonna freaking pick it up even if they called. What's even worst when you said I dont want you. You still don't know how much I need you in my life. How much I love you to not let you go. I still cant have your believe in my real love for you. I guess only time...not just ordinary time. Really long time to let you know I'm willing to wait and Love you forever that my heart is really true for you. I was so sad and showed my freaking anger to my mum's friend who keeps bothering me having a bloody important conversation with you. Can't you just see how important you are to me. Even my mum pleaded me to stay a night in KL and I refused. I told her I'm gonna drive back alone tonight even if I had too. I knew my mum was quite mad at me already but I dont care. I care about you more than anything else. I drove back home at 110km/h on the highway. My heart was tearing apart thinking back about the message I've received. I've made the person I love so much angry and mad at me. I've made my freaking decision to not work AT ALL. I cant afford to lose you at all. All I ever prayed for is your safety and happiness everynight before and after sleep. I even drove all the way back without dinner and requested maggi mee. As long I can be with you, food and condition is nothing compared to who I am with.I've dropped everything just to make sure you're happy...I really wish you could live your life happily . You deserve the best of the best. I just wanna be with you and protect your happy life which you once had before. My only job I have is to keep you happy till death do us apart.
