Being through this one year and 4 months relationship, all that I can conclude that we've only actually got together for four months. The truly happy four months I'm willing to go back for it. Its the memories and truly enjoying laughter and smile....Not the numbers representing how long nor how strong you are. Being with you all these while...I regret alot of stuffs. I regret....I just regret coming into your life earlier by 4 months. You heard me, I regret honestly. I wished our relationship was just 1 year by now. Today . 12.00 am. All over again. I regret for being an understanding person. I regret for trying to understand you. I should just let you quit that first week you're willing to do it. I do not regret the choice making between USM and Taylors the night you asked me because I said USM so clearly and I'm very very sure about it. I just dont know how to tell you to explain how I feel. I wish you can just be in my shoes and tell me how you feel instead. I regret signing up whatsapp for you as well. I regret for everything. You know, I was not suppose to be like this. This isnt the relation I dreamt of having. Being so worried and controlling everything. I was hoping we'll be happy no matter how far apart. We wont have to care or worry what we're doing. We'll be happy no matter what happens. You have your freedom and space as well for myself. Looks likely life truly doesnt matter anymore. Being just 5 months there, your decision to actually quit for me turned all the way round to a solid 'no' regardless of how I ASK, BEG, or even CRY or whatsoever I did. It change. It really change. I wished my life can be like a fairytale. How I really wish.... All my 28 pages of sentences and words...all dont seem to matter anymore.
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